YIYING(:

2009-09-19T18:36:00.000+08:00

Random Rants

2009-05-24T22:16:00.002+08:00

Alright, I know it's been a long time since I blogged, but I'm here now and that's what matters right? :D Sorry friend, I know you've been wanting me to blog, so sorry for the delay.

LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL! [: 1 week to ~~liberation~~ studying for mid years and occasionally going out to playyy. Haha I can't wait to go out- i need to SHOP or do something, the malls are calling my name :D Makes me seem like such a shopaholic but what :D Debs just told me about Pennisula Plaza which sells nice nice bags for 15BUCKS >< Save save Yi Ying, save!

GREG- I'M SORRY. I DROPPED THE WATER BOTTLE AND IT BROKE ): I was so devastated.

Choir handover on Thurs omg and farewell on 19th Jun. It seems just ytd that I made my farewell speech in front of the choir and went for farewell, I miss SN Choir so much ): Perhaps I realised that it wasn't really just choir that I loved- it was mostly SN Choir and all the wonderful people in it. Although sometimes I still wonder if i made the right choice in not joining VJChoir but I dont regret joining Knights. And yet always there's that 'what if' that should not persist any longer because yi ying, its time to live in the present!

Pw's been a total bitch and I have no idea how to salvage it ): Help someone.

VJ life has been a total rollarcoaster. Its not all fun and play as the seniors made it out to be but I'm so thankful for wonderful people like Debs and JK that stick around and are always there. [:

I WANT TO GO PENNISULA PLAZA TO GET A NEW BAG ):

2009-05-03T21:25:00.003+08:00

I would like to make it clear that I have bought
this tablecloth with its simple repeating pattern
of dark purple blooms not named by any botanist
because it reminds me of that printed dress you had
the summer we met - a dress you have always said
I never told you I liked. Well I did, you know. I did.
I liked it a lot, whether you were inside it or not.

How did it slip so quietly out of our life?
I hate - I really hate - to think of some other bum
swinging those heavy flower-heads left to right.
I hate even more to think of it mouldering on a tip
or torn to shreds - a piece here wiping a dipstick,
a piece there tied round a crack in a lead pipe.

It's all a long time ago now, darling, a long time,
but tonight just like our first night here I am
with my head light in my hands and my glass full,
staring at the big drowsy petals until they start to swim,
loving them but wishing to lift them aside, unbutton them,
tear them, even, if that's what it takes to get through
to the beautiful, moon-white, warm wanting skin of you.
-Andrew Motion

Sometimes you wonder in life if the choices you made are right, if it would have been better if
you've chosen some other way. But some choices you know are just right and even if others tell
you otherwise, you know you wouldn't want it any other way [:

Knights outing to sentosa on sat was da bomb haha [: It was so fun being in the water all the day,
playing capt's ball on shoulder sits, trying stunts in the water, riding with the waves haha love
Knights ttm <3 style="font-style: italic;">

Now I know that this is right, and this is perfect.

Its getting to the June hols in like 3 weeks, which is super duper fast! Need to study hard, jiayou
jiayou Yi Ying [:

Its been lovely getting to know better people around you, Debs, Shaf, Greg (the ego person who
wants me to blog about him). Lessons are made more fun when you have people sitting around
you (like JK ahemahem) who makes faces at you when you draw on them as they're dozing off,
so as to keep you awake yourself haha! And nice nice people who are very sweet and tell you that
you were a good emcee like Greg, even though you know that you were crappy.

And of course, there's you who's always been here. [:

Note to self: Pray, love and smile.

Face down in the dirt, she said "this doesn't hurt"

2009-04-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

Its been so long since I last blogged, and probably no one comes here anymore, I should just close this down haha.

And you do it all over again, and I fall again and again. Let down again, and I pick myself up. I'm an idiot, a fool and all I can do is hold it back yi ying you said you'll never cry and yet its so hard. If you'll just be here, though i know i'm not being fair and its hard for you to.

When you bring me more sorrow than joy, is it weak of me to want to collapse and stop giving?

Only the young could fall so hard

2009-01-20T21:34:00.002+08:00

We're in this life together
Even when one moves without the other
Different pages from the same story

2nd Feb will be a new beginning all over again, new friends, new environment. I must say I'm pretty excited [: Results was pretty unexpected, surprising and a tad disappointing, but I'm very much thankful to God for blessing me with so much.

Flying to Hong Kong on Thurs for a whole week for CNY, Jo-Ann says I'll be missing out on hong baos and CNY songs haha but tbh its much more festive over there than here [: For a start there will be fireworks! Which I can view from my cousin's condo, cool to the max. I won't be able to go back to StNicks for CNY celebration though, bummer ): Miss singing the track, and we missed it last year during National Day too. Oh well, 080808 was fun [:

I've been guilty of being the really ultimate slacker these few weeks >< Can't wait for school to start and get some work on my hands, I know what the seniors mean now when they say I'll miss work once I finish O's and I guess they're right. Time to buck up once school starts!

I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

2009-01-08T14:12:00.009+08:00

Photos Galore [:

Seeing that I haven't really taken the time to reflect back on the beautiful memories of 2008, I shall now, by reviewing pictures and posting them as I go along.

Christmas Service with Char and Clar

Carolling! (With one very extra person at the back)

Children's Camp with Lydia!

Youth Sunday! Rach, Elaine & Monkey [:

Powerpoint with Elaine!

Planetshakers Concert! Elaine, Monkey & Jacko [:

Jack's Place with Rach!

After Watchnight service <3

Jia & Myra!

Zhu Wei stooping to accomodate me :D

Sitting partners towards the end! <3

Small eyed people :D

Conceptians! <3

Chor Yi's signature pose [:

Myra changed her braces colour for my birthday :D

Shu's signature pose :D

With Mrs Goh!

Jump shot partner xxoo :D

No more regrets! [: Results out on Mon, I will not let myself worry, but pray hard, knowing God is with me all the way [:

4days to,

New Beginnings

2009-01-02T22:11:00.003+08:00

Comfort food for girls: Kinder Bueno White
Note to self: Don't eat too much chocolate when you have an ulcer.

2009. Rachel made me sit down and write down New Year resolutions before we went for Watch Night service, and I'm determined to keep them.. the ones that matter anyway [: I realised how much things are different since last year, and I wonder how things will be like after 2009.

Shopping with Rachel on the 30th, finally, after talking about shopping with her for so long (think june). Got 3 tops and a dress, ended the day with SG dinner at NewYorkNewYork. Now I'm craving for the cream pasta that Clarice got ><

Results out in 2 weeks, all the regrets are starting to settle in again, but I guess its too late to think about it now.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

Vibrant Vienna/ Beautiful Bratislava

2008-12-10T22:20:00.002+08:00

It was a trip filled with many wonderful memories and many ups and downs, but really beautiful on the whole. Pictures speak a thousand words, so I have 390 000 to be spoken and they'll do the talking for me, though not in so many words [: It was cold but not freezing, we got a gold and Group 8 rocks [: Lynette and Jeanette were so amusing throughout the whole trip, they just kept making me laugh and laugh and laugh. Esp Lynette, with her retarded statements.

With reference to fish bones:
"You should never eat the same fish twice. I swear, its out to get you"

With reference to dragonflies:
"They're all waiting for me!!"

In the airplane:
"The aeroplane toilet is magical. It's the only place I feel normal (in the place)"

Violent tendencies:
Everytime she sees kids: "I want to kidnap them back!"
Seeing Leh Lin's neck: "I feel like strangling her!"
Seeing Pheo: "I feel like kicking her."
Remembering a kid with a cute bear hat: "I felt like grabbing his head."

My dear mortal

My dearest angel!

Group 8's rings (which Lynette lost within hours -.-)

Vienna's beautiful City Hall

Gigantic lollipop! It was like 20SGD :o

In the Seegrotto!

Stunning wood carvings at the Bratislava Christmas Market

Some boat thing in the Seegrotto's underground lake that was used in the original Three Musketeers movies
All the black coats!

Jeanette's unglam moments :D

THE KIDS WERE ADORABLE TO THE MAX

Dear Shinny [: My hair's disgusting only cuz it was just after the competition

The bestest hot chocolate EVER

Zying & me with the Peeping Tom statue [:

Kai Yin! Next door neighbour in Hotel Junior

Amanda dear! [: Next door neighbout #2

Danube River!

Gorgeous view from a castle in Bratislava

The palace we sang in!

View of the Bratislava castle from the St Michael's Tower

View of St Michael's Tower from the castle :D

Inside the castle

Ying Tong looks like a rabbit :D

Dearest Zying [: Roommate!

The lake facing Hotel Junior with swans swimming towards us

Group 8! In front of the opera house in Vienna

At our first dinner

Schronbroum(?) Palace in Vienna

Dearest Hazel!

Flying over gorgeous mountains

Soar

2008-12-01T17:20:00.002+08:00

Flying off tonight/tomorrow early morn, its a mixture of apprehension, excitement and reluctance I bring along with me. On the bright side it'll snow [: And on the not so bright side I'm going to miss so many things in Singapore though its only for a week. But it'll be the last choir trip with SN Choir, so I'm going to make the most of it!

Jia You SN Choir!

Grad Night

2008-11-28T21:48:00.003+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=63712&l=aac3b&id=528635752
Photos on Facebook

It really is hard to believe that all 4years are over and there won't be anymore family dance/morning assembly/ morning jogs/4truth/ mep lessons/exco meetings and everything else. Moving around on heels that night was killer, got blisters cuz the heels were a tad too tight. Running the whole thing with exco couldn't have been better though, I wouldn't have asked for a better grad night [:

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Primitive Point

2008-11-23T22:09:00.002+08:00

I know it's too late to start regretting, but I do and I wish it could have turned out any other way but this. I just have to pray hard that God will be merciful, although I know I really don't deserve it.

SN Choir- I don't know how many of you will actually read this before we go to Bratislava, but this is one of the best ways I can say everything without missing out something I want to say:

You all have already come this far, and its not just in terms of preparing for the trip, we didn't get that Gold with Honours that easily. With every single success comes alot of hard work, we cannot expect this Gold to come so easily to us. I know that all of you are probably tired from all the practices and scoldings but I just want you all to remember, we're ALL in this TOGETHER. The sec4s, choir comm08/09, ms lim, the teachers, every single one of you. Just one person can make a lot of difference, so please just endure for these two more weeks! After the competition when we get our gold you guys will be happier than anyone else on earth because we all know the effort and the hard work that has gone into this.
Its not going to be easy, no one said it was. Just as long as each one of you put in a bit more effort, it can make alot alot of difference. If you think that you've already put in your best effort, then you can do better. Let this trip be a chance for you to outdo yourself, prove yourself capable of more! [: We'll all do this together ok choir?

(ok i might repeat some of this when i talk to you guys nxt thurs but whatever :D)

SN CHOIR FTW

Ohmdadida

2008-11-18T23:02:00.002+08:00

andrea; says:
i was thinking of you then i msg you

HAHA. This is proof that Andrea Pang loves me :D

Exco meetings over the past few days have been fun and hilarious, with me Ainslie and Pei Wen going off halfway to get a body examination of the % of fats in our body and coming up with funny lyrics, making fun of Mary (ORH LULU) and harmonizing and chording and yay I love exco even though its tiring but ONE MORE WEEK TO GRAD NIGHT and it will be our last event together ): and even so we wont be together cuz not every exco member's going for prom ):

Mary's seriously the most retarded person on earth cuz she makes the funniest mistakes that I shall not mention because I'm nice to her :D Unlike how she always teases me hrmph DA YOU ZHI see how nice I am! :D

Tired tired ): Sleepz.

Freedom?

2008-11-14T21:42:00.003+08:00

It's weird that O levels are over and you are actually free. When there's so much more to do, I guess its hard to feel that way.

Had choir practice in the afternoon so I didn't get to go out with the girls, went out with dearest juniors after the practice for dinner at NYNY instead. I was so bloated after that, and it's funny seeing some of them being so high and funny, I didn't know Lynette was like that haha. Thanks for coming out with me dearies.

Invest 08: EMBRACE; Embark on a Race

Can't believe one year's come and gone, after the numerous stuff we've planned and done together as a council/exco. I'm gonna miss working together with exco after Grad Night. At the same time you can't help but feel proud of the upcoming batch because they've come someways and the invest today was wonderful. Jiayou exco 08/09, I believe in y'all [:

Planning of grad night&preparation for bratislava choir comp in the coming week, at least I'll be kept occupied.

Reality Sets In

2008-11-10T22:30:00.002+08:00

1. I've come to realise that I love : reading good books over and over again, discovering new stuff each time.
2. I've come to realise that my last ex : is non-existant.
3. I've come to realise that I say : the things I wish I could do.
4. I've come to realise that I have : the sweetest friends ever, even if they make fun of me.
5. I've come to realise that I have lost : the confidence of a happily-ever-after ending.
6. I've come to realise that I hate : not knowing.
7. I've come to realise that marriage is : something you look towards, and you rarely think of it not happening.
8. I've come to realise that the best : friends dont tell you everything you want to hear.
9. I've come to realise that I will always be : loved even when I think I'm alone.
10. I've come to realise that love : is a conscious decision
11 . I've come to realise that the last time I cried was : because of how girls make everything so complicated
12. I've come to realise that when I wake up in the morning : it gets later and later by the day.
13. I've come to realise that before I go to sleep at night : I need assurance
14. I've come to realise that right now : even though I've said I wont wait I still am.
15 . I've come to realise that babies : are adorable and captivating.
16 . I've come to realise that I get on MySpace : But I don't ><
17. I've come to realise that today : was a very unproductive day ):
18. I've come to realise that tonight : was just as unproductive as my day ):
19. I've come to realise that tomorrow : will be an opportunity for me to mug hard and make up for today [:
20. I've realise that I really want : to reach for my dreams and not care about what others say.

To Rachel,

2008-11-09T22:41:00.002+08:00

We always have so much insane fun together although it's really ridiculous most of the time, and take alot of crazy shots that flood my phone/camera. On the other hand you're always here for me and you always seem to know what's on my mind. Thanks for sticking by me for the last 6 years, my life wouldn't be the same without a best friend like you who would knock sense into me when no one else would and make me laugh at the most absurd of nonsense even when i'm upset. No matter what, you'll always have a place in my heart.

I LOVE YOU BEST FRIEND ♥

To Xian Hui,

2008-11-08T00:35:00.002+08:00

I remember all our silly conversations from Sec2 before choir and studying together at Macs during the holidays, I miss those times! We'll be (hopefully) in the same school again next year and we can spend more time together again [: It's been quite long since I've met up with you (ok not really, but still :D) we haven't been able to talk properly. We shall go out together during the holidays! Thanks for always being my sunshine and always being so ready to stand up for me. Thanks for always being here with me whenever I'm down and need someone to talk to you always make me laugh, the way you just did and I'm already feeling better [: You're one of the most wonderful and loyal and sweet person I know and I'm so lucky to have a friend like you! I'll always be here for you as well, whenever you need someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on or simply someone to go shopping with :D You always make me try clothes I otherwise would not have tried on haha!

I love you Hui! ♥

We've Got A Big Mess On Our Hands

2008-11-06T14:27:00.002+08:00

My table's cluttered with all sorts of things! O.o I need to clear it before I start doing lit revision, but I probably will just chuck it on top of the whole pile of papers and books that's been building up since the end of prelims :D Can't wait to clean up my room after Os, cuz I'll finally be able to laugh at my bio/chem/maths/ss/hist practice papers that I never got around to doing and throw them away :D

LAST CHINESE PAPER OF MY LIFE YESTERDAY OMG. *throws my dictionary into the air with glee* ~~Unless I go to IB bleah~~ so I just shouldn't hahah. Though I didnt finish paper 2 and rushed like a bullet train through my baozhang and concluded with the lamest conclusion ever heard of on the face of this earth, ITS MY LAST PAPER! And no more chinese for the rest of my life though I'll probably be like "oh no will that 6marks I lost not doing the question cost me my B sobsob" much closer to Jan but whatever for now :D

SANDY! Omg I didn't wish you happy birthday >< So I shall wish you here to make up for it [:
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY DEAR!
Miss you much much, thanks for always being such a sweetie! I'll never forget all the crazy times we had together before, during and after SLC. Hope you had the sweetest sixteen!
I LOVE YOU ♥

Cycling with best friend on Saturday and Schindler's List before/after cycling :D Can't wait!

Dream, Dare, Do

2008-10-26T17:21:00.000+08:00

I think I've just never dared to.

20 odd more days to the end of Os.

Sweet Sixteen

2008-10-13T21:44:00.004+08:00

After what seems like a million years [:

Thank you to all the people who wished me! [:
(In order of the time they wished):
Justin, Rachel, Seline, Zhi Jun twinsy, Sam Wong, Daniel Sim, Shanna, Elaine, Zech, Xian Hui, Clarissa, Moy Kit, Leanor, Benji, Kaile, Kai Rou, Lijia, Xi Xian, Yin Ru, Zhu Wei, Ying Lin, Hazel, Myra, Ying Tong, Jia Min, Tessa, Clarice, Kelyn, Jing Yan, Eleanor

(My sweet mentees remembered my birthday! <33333)
<3 Thanks for remembering and being such dears!

Jia, JM and Sel were so sweet [: They did this impromptu thing (I think) after I said I was going to study with them at Macs. Sel was ultimately hilarious, the cake she got was from Macs and we were studying at Macs *facepalm* But thank you my dears! <3

Sakae with Rachel at 3ish, omg I'm so bloated now >< "Birthdays are for pigging out"-quote Justin *laughs* Talked about super random stuff and ate and ate and ate. We decided to forgo the whole "dump the food in opaque bag" idea and be good girls and finish our food. Of course we had help from a glutton who came later on to help us finish the food :D Walked around Raffles City after, I can't wait for Os to be over to go shopping with her [: Love you bestie, thanks for today, I really did enjoy myself though I was really tired towards the end.

7more days, 7 more days!

[/edit]: I CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT! [: Matt called from Aust to wish me, how sweet! Thanks dude!

Fine

2008-10-11T18:33:00.002+08:00

Last day of Stnicks life yesterday, photos up another day. It's been such a wonderful 4 years, so many beautiful memories that I've collected and will guard with my life [: Right now everything's whirling around me, endings, beginnings, exams ohmygosh and dreams and hopes.
I'm so glad for this last year, it's really funny how you only get to know and love some people only towards the ending and you regret how you get to spend only so little time with them, the time you wasted before. I guess I'm just glad that things turned out the way they are in the end [:

4Truth- best class ever, thank you for being so crazily awesome!
Sel- T3 tablemate, wish I'd gotten to sit with you earlier, though you punch me on my nose and flick rubber bands at my mouth :D Love you to bits, even if I always tease and insult your blurness [: Don't worry for the exams, I know you've been working hard and I believe in you!
JiaMin- You're such a dear [: Have more confidence in yourself alright, I know you can do it and dejavu of your PSLE will not happen! Missing morning assemblies with you :/ I'm so glad for the last few months we hung out more together! I love you dearie, we must go out after exams kay [:
Jia- T2 partner! You're so smart I can't stand you hahah [: I know you'll get into where you want to go. Thanks for making me laugh all the time with stuff like your rubbishy 1226.. eh you get what I mean haha! :D Love you lots!
Myra- Study hard! [: You're going to go to HC and love life there, I know you can! Thanks for doing the braces thing for my birthday, its so sweet haha though I like (told you to) but its still cute [: And you look nice in blue and green braces anyway :D Thanks for always being here these two years, I love you lots!

I could go on for hours and not run out of things to say to people but I need to get back to chem. After exams, perhaps [: 5more weeks till freedom, go class of 2008!

All in love
With stolen hearts
And we all fall down
And fall apart for love

Of Dreams and Questions asked and unasked

2008-10-07T20:45:00.003+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. ying
2. yingster (-.-)
3. trist? (to the rare, almost non-existant few)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. YI YING
2. tnyy
3. -

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. Long fingers :D
2. I LOOK tall :D
3. Eyes :D

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. Short ):
2. Fat thighs ):
3. Under 45kg (Cannot donate blood! ): )

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Hokkien
2. Chinese
3. Singaporean *laughs*

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. To some extent, heights
2. Insects *shivers*
3. My imagination running wild

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Handphone
2. Music
3. Food

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW
1. 08cohort tee
2. black fbts
3. Specs

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW)
1. Thunder- Boys Like Girls
2. With Me- Sum 41
3. Come Home- OneRepublic

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. I'm a ultimate mugger who's on my way to 10A1s.
2. I'm a ok mugger who wants to aim for 10A1s.
3. I'm a slacker who can dream on about having 10A1s.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. Eyes [:
2. Well built arms :D
3. AND body :D

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. Talking to good friends [:
2. Singing/Playing the guitar
3. Reading

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Join VJK ):
2. Go for salsa lessons with hui!
3. HUG YOU ): (Hahaha jiamin, I agree with you on this one)

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED
1. Psychologist
2. Author *laughs*
3. Musician

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. Venice !!!
2. Africa [:
3. Paris

THREE NAMES YOU LIKE
1. YI YING! (heehee)
2. Tristyn! :D
3. Christian [:

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE (like, a thousand things)
1. SKY DIVING/BUNGEE JUMPING
2. Go star gazing in a open field with no annoying streetlights disrupting your view
3. Donate blood/have kids/fulfill my dreams :D

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. Long hair
2. Dressing up :D
3. I don't mind staying slim actually

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. I WANT TO BE TANNED ):
2. AND have muscles ): But not like bulging ones ><
3. Oversized unkempt shirts :D

Choices

2008-10-05T22:48:00.003+08:00

Jiamin- I'll do your quiz thingy another day, I promise [:

O levels in 15days counting today, 14days from tomorrow.
I don't think I can do it. But I know I have to. 2more weeks! Then a month later it'll all be over.

Sometimes its so hard to go and reach for your dream because it seems so absurd. And perhaps you believe in yourself but you're afraid that you might be mistaken and others might not agree with you.

But once in a while people push on to something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quite persistence of a dream.

Maybe sometimes I depend on you too much. I'm getting so used to being let down that I don't even feel upset anymore. I think i'm just asking. For promises to be kept.
It isn't that hard a thing right?

Sometimes- all you need is one.

Vanishing Acts

2008-09-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

maybe, after awhile, you do run out of words to say

Prelims have been absolutely horrible. Thank God they're coming to an end, hopefully the real thing won't be that bad (and that i'll be much more prepared for them). Wall-e with rachy tmr! [:

Looking forward to the end of o levels- going to TP Rawks!! with Seline, jia and jm! It sounds, quote Seline, "so fun and exciting!", and its nice being able to not study, finally, after 4 years, without an ounce of guilt.

There are times you can't help but wish that you could feel another way, or make everything go away. You wonder if what you're doing is right, if it was something you did, if there's something you can do to make it okay. There are nights you stay up watching the moon shine and the clouds moving soundlessly to cover it, and you can't help but feel that the same light in your heart is being masked the same way.

I should go back to being on hiatus.

2008-08-26T16:54:00.002+08:00

1)The person who tagged you is:
Elaine Teo [:

2)Your relationship with her is:
Church friend!

3)Your 5 impression of her is:
1) Sports pro [:
2) Multi talented!
3) Super cute [:
4) Goes high very easily
5) Very nice [:

4)The most memorable thing she has done for you:
Hmm. Idk, when i'm down and i talk to her she'll end up cheering me up cuz she'll make me damn high too haha

5)If she becomes your lover, you will:
No WAY hahaha (she's too short ><)

6)If she becomes your lover, things she will have to improve on will be:
Have more confidence in yourself [:

7)If she becomes your enemy, the reason would be:
Because... eh. I highly doubt she will.

8)The most desired thing you want to do for her now is:
Hmm. Talk to her? Haha we haven't talked properly for some time

9)Your overall impression of her is:
Cute [: Not in a bad way!

10)How do you think people around you feel about you?
Hmm. That i'm a nice person ? ><

11)The characteristics you love about yourself:
I don't give up that easily?

12)On the contrary,the characteristics you hate about yourself:
I get impatient easily to the people i love, especially on my bad days ><

13)The most ideal person you want to be is:
My mummy haha [:

14)The people that care and like you, say something to them:
I love you guys [:

15)Pass this quiz on 5 people you wish to know to know more about you.
Hmm. Nah [:

2008-08-25T21:36:00.002+08:00

Safe haven.
Shelter.
A constant refuge that would put aside all things to be there for you.
Surely you've got to wonder how long that would last. How long it would stand before even the refuge breaks down.
That simple words would make you give up all and forget past grievances
To just be there?
One who would do anything to make everything better.

Forgive me, this post is far beyond anyone's ability to grasp it haha.
I'm not even sure I understand it

2008-08-25T19:15:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you take years to find out something about yourself, sometimes it comes to you like a flash, a revelation that maybe, something you thought was always right and good for yourself need not necessarily be that way. That that's not the road you want to take, that the world is big and there are millions of choices out there.
And then again, those times might prove you wrong and you get another jolt, realising that maybe that isn't the best thing for you after all, and you best stick with what you're familiar with.

Maybe someone can answer this for me
Would you venture into the unknown, or stick with familiarity?

Its like a jacket you put around yourself. Knowing that there's that extra layer protecting you, knowing you can never go wrong.
I wonder if that's the better way.

But before that, comes, of course, the dreaded exams. Prelims just started, O levels in a month and a half, its probably time for me to take a hiatus.

2008-08-22T19:54:00.008+08:00

Last day of normal Secondary life ):
Em Chua/ Yan Lin's POV of me and Seline when we turn around. I'll miss sitting with my dear tablemate ):

HANDOVER

Kai Rou mentee! <3

Ying Lin mentee/ Track capt! <3

ExCo!

Lumen ExCo! <3

Vice Heads! <3

ExCo! <3

Take time to realize,

That your warmth is

Crashing down on in.

Take time to realize,

That I am on your side

Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And will never find another

Just realize what I just realized

We'd never have to wonder if

We missed out on each other now

2008-08-20T19:55:00.002+08:00

JEAN-BAPTISTE MAUNIER!!!
*swoons and faints*

2008-08-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

Here's for Seline, who wants to see my music meme
--
Koped from Seline who koped from Jiafeng :D

"Simple directions: use the shuffle function on your music player and see what you come up with in answer to the following questions."
---
How Does The World See You?
Stranger- Secondhand Serenade
O.o Oh dear, do I come across that cold that people think of me as a stranger? :'(

Will I Have A Happy Life?
Love Is No Big Truth- Kings Of Convenience
HMM. WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN HAHAHA. (Oh dear the song is about how the person doesnt need love! :'(( )

What Do My Friends Think Of Me?
Total Eclipse Of The Heart- Westlife
?!?!? What- they're in love with me? :D Heehee.

Do People Secretly Lust After Me?
Silent Movie- Natasha Bedingfield
HAHAHAH this could be a yes or a no, I mean with lines like "Step into the movie, you can be my leading man". Hmmm :D

How Can I Make Myself Happy?
I Don't Want To Go- Avalon
"Cause I know that me without you is a lie" Hmm, so me not leaving the people I have by my side now will make me happy? Haha makes sense.

What Should I Do With My Life?
Bomb- Switchfoot
HAHAHA. Ok that's one advice I'm not following. :D

Will I Ever Have Children?
Holiday- Mad House
HAHA. What- my life will be like a holiday cuz I wont? I need to take a holiday to have children? I'm so amused.

What's Some Good Advice For Me?
Incomplete- Switchfoot
I'm incomplete without God, without the people by my side? Or simply that I'm incomplete now? :O

How Will I Be Remembered?
THAT GIRL- FRANKIE J FT. CHAMILLIONAIRE AND MANNIE FRESH
HAHAHAHAH. "The most beautiful girl in the world pageant" :DD

What Is My Signature Dancing Song?
Mei Li De Shen Hua- Jackie Chan & Kim Hee Sun
-.- Wow. Poo.

What Do I Think My Current Theme Song Is?
With Arms Wide Open- Creed
? I don't even listen to that song much!
"With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love" <3

What Does Everyone Think My Current Theme Song Is?
Wu Ming Yi- Ng Yi Ying
HA. Half the world hasn't even heard this song.

What Song Will Play At My Funeral?
You're Beautiful- James Blunt
HAHA. Is that like some attempt of iTunes to convince me that I am beautiful? The answer corresponds to that of how I will be remembered :D

What Sort Of Men/Women Do You Like?
Tactics- Rurouni Kenshin
?! Hmmm- what, I have different tactics in finding out the men and/or (:D) women I like?

What Will Be My Day Like?
Stars- Switchfoot
Hahah ok at least this song makes a tad more sense than like "Tactics" [: Hmm- what, I'll be seeing stars later today?

---

Haha totally hilarious.

Back to school today was hilarious. I was tired out by 8.55am- but only because me Jiamin Seline were going high over FENGTIANWEI (FTW!!!) and Jia Min and me were fighting over her. ("You don't steal her ok she's MINE!"-Jia Min) And literally we were fighting, with dear Seline on my side, we were throwing balls of aluminium foil at each other :D And Jia Min wrote me a note on aluminium foil (you'd be surprised how cool the effect turns out to be) declaring that FTW was hers, whatever Jia Min! But dearest tablemate turned against me half way through and threatened to throw the ball into my mouth ): Oh wells, at least we still held our fort against the evil Jia Min who steals FTW away from me, hahaha. AND we stole one whole roll of aluminium foil away from Jia Min :D Without her noticing till we got it to our side and she started screaming at us :D
Shopping for food with Seline tmr at supermarket! Turns out that both of us didnt manage to finish the whole list we planned for the weekend ): But we've resolved to help each other be hardworking and productive! And we both agreed the weekend turned out to be rather productive [: Here's to study sessions and good time management <3

2008-08-11T19:53:00.000+08:00

男人的爱是深沉的，常在心底蕴藏着，一旦喷发，便如火山一般；男人的泪如金，身体再苦再累，男人都不会落泪，他怕的是心的伤、心的苦。当一个男人在你面前流泪时，请不要笑他，那是你眼前的某个情景触动了他内心的痛——只是你注意不到。当一个男人为你流泪时，请你一定要珍惜，那是他内心的真实表白。不管那表述的是他内心的伤痛，还是对你的爱与留恋。你应该感到自豪，因为有个男人曾为你流过泪——即使你看不起他，也只应在心里笑他。男人的真爱从不轻易付出，它藏在男人的心底，一生只会对一个女人付出。一旦付出，就倾尽了他的一生，他的所有。不管以后再会面对多少女人，也只能暂时填补他内心的缺憾，那些女人是可悲的，因为她们只是做了男人心中那个女人的影子。男人的泪从不轻易流，他只为了他的心伤，只为了他的真爱而流。男人惜泪胜金，大款的一掷千金见过不少，几人见过两行清泪的男人？“相顾无言，惟有泪千行”——“男儿有泪不轻弹，只是未到伤心处”！男人的真爱从不挂在嘴上，他知道该怎么去爱他的女人，他怕他的女人受到一点点伤害。为了他一生的牵挂，总在默默的付出，去做他认为应该做的事。他从不仅仅为了取悦她而去买一束花，说一句“我爱你”；变天时他会提醒她备好衣服，她生病时赶紧买回药然后端上一杯温温的水。男人的泪更多时候是流在心里，流在人的背后。因为男人的自尊，在人前总是一切无所谓的样子。在他独处的时候，在一个人的夜里，他才会拨动他的心弦，认真的解读心中的她，写下对她的思念，泪也悄悄的为她滴落。男人真爱的付出是心甘情愿的，不会因为时空的变换而消退，只能随着时日的渐长积淀的更厚。把心中对她的爱恋写在心里，随额头皱纹日渐深刻，即使心中的她身在天涯，他也不会觉得远——因为他知道自己的爱已陪伴着远去的她。昨夜，梦中，不是还有她么？轻轻的，就在床前……男人的落泪也是心甘情愿的，在每一个夜晚，在每一个思念心中的她时。他在深夜的每一次开机时呆呆的眼神，他在酒醉打第一通电话时急切的样子；读着心中的那个熟悉的号码，为等一个短信而神伤，为听到熟悉的声音而落泪。在他最孤独、最需要安慰的时候，他总是拨给心中的她，流着泪只说给她听，只想让她知道自己狼狈的样子。如果她已关机，他越会滴着泪一遍一遍的拨打——仅仅为了拨动自己的一根心弦。请珍惜男人的真爱，因为那是他毕生所有的付出，你会是他终身的牵挂。不管以后怎样，你应该感到幸福——因为有个男人永远爱着你。请珍惜男人的眼泪，因为那是他最真心的流露，他会是你永恒的归属。不管你们结果如何，你应该感到幸运——因为有一个男人永远想着你。想得到男人的真爱很难，因为他毕生只会付出一次，只对一个人。如果有个男人为你流泪了，请你好好去爱他，你会是他生命的唯一…

-http://caotanghongyin.blog.163.com

2008-08-09T19:57:00.005+08:00

080808

Truthians!

Stacy, Shu & TABLEMATE <3

BLUES in Truth! (:

JAMY

Connect Singapore was quite a hilarious event, though it kinda failed with the holding hands and taking the pledge together, but oh well. Truth was the best ever, it wouldnt have been half as fun with all our community singing together and camwhoring (:

3 days holiday ftw- here's to productive studying and good time management!

2008-07-23T21:04:00.002+08:00

I can't help but be disappointed with _, and I dont know what to do about it, seeing that what's done is done, and it's all past. I suppose I can't expect too much, seeing that I'm not perfect either, but what we have now is really. Well. I don't understand how some people can think of this as perfect and wonderful, and the 'best ever', but I suppose that biasedness was extended to us in the beginning as well.

Anyway.
Amanda T. came to our class today and asked Mrs Hoo:
"Can I see Yi Ying and Myra?"
Mrs Hoo: "Yi Ying and Myra! Wah, got secret admirer already."

:O

Seline Kok, my kok kok tablemate and her nonsense.
Seline: "This is my face when i look at you: >: ("
Yi Ying: "This is your face, full stop. *proceeds to draw squiggles across the face drawn*"
Seline: "OOI! *draws a spider* This is you"
Yi Ying: "Ha! I'm cool spiderwoman and I kiss hot guys upside down."
Seline: "-.-.... WHATEVER."

Hahaha ok I admit I love you Seline, you are hilarious to the max (:

2008-07-18T22:07:00.000+08:00

I feel obligated to blog about farewell, so here it is: the perfect happily-ever-after to my life as a SN Chorister. Well, with the exception of the year-end competition, in Bratislava, and from what I hear of, VIENNA as well (:

First of all: THANK YOU COMM 08/09 for such an awesome farewell, for the well done and funny choir item, for the food, for the toast to us with wine glasses and sparkling juice, for the cool sec4 presents and certs, and the awesome comm07/08 tee! You all are totally the love (:

Next: to all my fabulous juniors. You guys are so sweet and totally awesome, I love you all so much! I really regret not getting to know many of you personally, but you all gave so generously and all your letters and presents were so wonderful and touching (: Thanks for putting in so much effort into your farewell gifts, into farewell itself, and really, yellowbadges will be standing at the beginning with y'all!

The initial plan for me Myra Shinny and other juniors to go out for dinner was scratched with all the bags of presents me and Myra had to lug home, and we were scolded by Ms Lim for staying till so late at the forum :/ But we did our toast and ate the cake at the canteen anyway, and despite the fact that it dragged alot, comm0809- farewell was really a blast, and we really love you all tons for putting in so much thought and effort into it (:

Pictures of me and my partner are not up yet, though I think she still hates me abit for making her be the girl when she refused to wear a proper skirt and looked a tad auntyish >< But ZhuWei and all agreed that I looked like a guy! And an exclamation from a junior when we were camwhoring at the back of the New AVA Room: "OMG LOOK AT YI YING AND MYRA!" :D (I'm supposing they're in awe of how couplish we look- though i'm a way hotter guy than she will ever be.)

So staying up till 2ish 3 to finish up my letters to the sec2&3s and putting in all the time and effort to prepare the presents was worth it, after all, you only get one chance to step down from the wonderful SN Choir as the former SC, so here's to you SN CHOIR- GOLD WITH HONOURS NEXT YEAR!

2008-07-13T15:56:00.002+08:00

IJ BL.UE

SNSC EXCO <3

BL.UE was the ultimate! (: Seeing all the enthu IJ leaders come together and just have so much fun and being so crazy and screaming our lungs out was seriously the best. I'm so glad the 2nd last event ExCo organised together was such a success, I'll seriously miss meetings with ExCo ):

Telematch and Station Games were the ultimate, especially for me & Mary's station, we had so much fun disturbing the participants, and especially Mag, Heidi and Cleo, they just screamed the house down with all the 'insects' on them and with all the funny things crawling on them :D LOVE YOU ZHI <3

Back to studying- all the wayyyy yiying!

2008-07-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

IJ BL.UE's Dry Run:

Wei Yi: "I'm so hot I want to take my shirt off"
Me, Tessa, Mary, Shu Fen, Chia: "EEEE"
Mary, turning to me a sec later: "What did she say?"
*cues laughter*

Mary: "Awww, I'm so starched."
Me: "Starched?!"
Mary: "OH NO, I mean touched!"
*cues laughter*

Shu Fen: "It's raining Mafia!"
*throws raffia string on me*
Me: "Mafia?!"
*cues laughter*

Yay I love SN ExCo 08 (:

IJ BL.UE WILL BE A SUCCESS! :D

2008-07-05T21:52:00.001+08:00

~~I'm losing every shread of self pride i ever had, its all leaking away from me. What's happening to you Yi Ying?~~

On a brighter note, JIA'S COMING TO CHURCH TMR! (: Omg i was so happy when she said that she didnt mind coming. We had a good night study session on Fri and guess what- we were the only two girls who stayed back, cool or what. Although Tommy didnt turn up and we were discussing about his fate in SNGS with PRIME and all :D Studied maths & bio, and talked about anything and everything (almost) and ate and ate :/ Haha Jia's been teasing me the entire term 3 about my getting hungry every 2 hours, and she would go, "AGAIN?!" and give me that "What's your problem" face :D Yay love you Cheng Li Jia, cheers to many more productive Friday Night Study sessions!

2 weeks into term 3 and already i'm spent. The routine of tests are starting to catch up with me, but ironically I've been getting more sleep although I study more (: Thing about tests almost every day is that it makes you a billion times happier when the last test of the week finishes, and everyone's like "YES NO MORE TESTS" and we all don't really care how the test was, even if it was really bad, because we're all so relieved its all over. For one week, at least. :/ Seline the piggie who can(not) fly is a great tablemate, she makes me laugh like nuts during lesson and causes fenhong to turn around and look at us like we're aliens. :D Yay to not falling asleep (much) during lessons!

6 tests in the 4days of Wk3- GO 4 TRUTH!
IJ Leaders Session this Sat- GO SN EXCO 08!

*VOTE BEV'S BLOG FOR THE OMY SGBLOGAWARD 08 HERE

2008-06-17T22:33:00.001+08:00

2008-06-17T11:25:00.004+08:00

GOODNESS (:

RAW CAMP- 11th to 15th June

It's hard to describe this camp in words- the experience was truly wonderful. The night before the camp itself, the leaders stayed over to pray and that was the time I felt God telling me to just give it all to Him and not worry anymore- I felt so joyful and peaceful after that.

Throughout the camp, I was humbled many times seeing my group members respond to the various altar calls, and the challenges issued to them, praying for each other and even jumping in worship freely. Our God is truly awesome- He works in wonderful ways that we'd never expect! <3

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." -Romans 8:28

There's so much more about camp to say, but I just don't know where to begin. I'm just going to say that I'm not going to let go of this experience, and will REDEEM others for Christ! (:

2008-06-08T19:44:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Elaine (:
a) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blogs
Replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
b) Tag some people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they are tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1: If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Wondering if its my fault hahaha

#2: what kind of people you dislike?
Hmm. Two-faced people

#3: What will your dream wedding be like?
Awesome, but it doesn't have to be some super grand event

#4: Are you hungry?
Randoms! Haha alittle (:

#5: What's your ideal lover like?
Caring, tolerant, must like, know what he wants from life? and must be a Christian

#6: Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving someone

#7: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
As long as I have to?

#8: If the person you secretly like (if there isn't one, just imagine) is already attached, what would you do?
Erms. Get over him bah.

#9: Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Haha got.

#10: Is there anything that has made you happy these days?
Siao friends- though they laugh at me (:

#11: How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Having a happy family(hopefully!) (: And having a good start on my career

#12: Who are currently the most important people to you?
Rachy (: Friends, family

#13: What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
SIAO. :D

#14: Would you rather be single and rich, or married but poor?
Married but poor

#15: What's the first thing you do every morning?
Check the status of my phone which is usually being charged :D

#16: Would you give it all in a relationship?
Yup

#17: If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I'd forget about both.

#18: Would you rather be friend with a geek who is a really nice guy or a super hot dude who really isn't that nice to you (treats you badly as a friend etc) ?
Geek.

#19: What are your friends usually like?
Super nice (: Noisy but fun bunch of people

#20: What would you do if you had one day left in the world?
Hahahaha. You can come and ask me yourself and I'll consider whether I should tell you (:

People to tag:
1) Jia (:
2) Myra
3) Denise
4) Shinny
5) Rachy

2008-06-02T20:21:00.002+08:00

CHOIR'S PERFORMANCE!

Kimi O No Se Te

Omg >< Kentucky sounds so sharp and disgusting )):

2008-06-02T17:30:00.012+08:00

JUBILATE V
Abigail C, Ler Yee, me, Jing Yi

Darling Shinny! (:

Me&Myra; Ler Yee was jumping at the back!

Abby, Adela, me, Myra

Charlyneee!

Alto2s! Kai Yin, Yang Zhen, Hazel, me, Adela, Abby

MRS ON! <3

Darling alto2s <3> The Miss-es!

YELLOW BADGES!

Adela ! (:

Hazel! (: This silly girl made me cry even before the concert, hahah.

Kai Yin, Yang Zhen, me, Abby

Adela, Myra, me, Yang Zhen, Kai Yin, Hazel

Jubilate was a wonderful last concert with the juniors- it was a perfect close to my 4 years in SN Choir. Day ONE was fab because the audience was really responsive and they cheered like crazy and all, and the choir was really enjoying themselves and I didn't feel nervous until I had to conduct, and my alto2s were all telling me not to be scared (: Day TWO was really scary because it was all the adults and they just clapped (boring -.-) and you know that people was out there watching (ahemahem) and you're really nervous. But Denise was a very nice first rower and she held my hand and calmed me down and omg I think we laughed through the entire performance when I forgot my part and did the actions wrongly and all and it was funny instead of horrifying (: And I was beaming and laughing away, which made me really happy. And before the father barre song Shinny was almost in tears and when she hugged me I was bracing myself not to cry but surprisingly, I felt too happy to cry although I cried before the performance, and she and Abby hugged me and told me to not be nervous for conducting (although I still was, but they were very sweet) And jubilate's finale was a beautiful close, and immediately after the curtains closed we all cheered and Kai Yin started crying immediately :/ Gosh I will really miss my juniors so much, Denise, Shinny, Ying Tong, Hazel, don't be sad ok, there's still two more practices and farewell!

The end comes so fast, and I finally understand what all the seniors said in the past to treasure your time in SN Choir, because although we have #$%$^$#@ people like (ahemMOLLYahem), but it becomes such a big part of your SN life that it seems kinda empty without it, though you're thinking 'finally, time to study after school'. And of course all the wonderful people like ALTO 2s and very sweet bluegreenwhite badges, I'll really miss y'all.

LOVE SN CHOIR

2008-05-29T21:44:00.003+08:00

JUBILATE V
30TH AND 31ST MAY

Time flies by so fast, I can't believe it's already the yellow badges' last two performances. It doesn't feel like it, and it's like now, ~~although a part of me can't wait to step down~~, another part of me doesn't and I will really miss SN Choir alot.
The seniors were right. You don't really know what you're missing till you leave it, and SN Choir- GWH next year alright!

2008-05-29T16:48:00.002+08:00

Going back to SLC- for me- didn't feel the same as I thought it would. Maybe it was because I didn't advise this batch of conceptians, or didn't know them, but I was disappointed at how things turned out to be. Going back to SPACE to watch Darren chair, it made me wish it was still me chairing, with Sarah next to me. Walking from venue to venue reminded me of how we rushed from venue to venue, the ops room is now the logs room for them, that still feels the same though. This SLC just doesn't feel the same as others did. Seeing the OT though was worth it. Nicholas grew 10cm and is now taller than me (Still can't get over that). Shannon grew a little, even he's taller than me now. Sherwin's still the same, Ben's still the same, even Zhong Han's still the same, with his gigantic ego refusing to admit that he had missed me :D Wish I was going back to grand finale though, that would make all the memories of SLC come back with the OT coming back together again.

2008-05-24T20:14:00.010+08:00

MADE OF HONOUR <3
At New York New York with candy floss! (:
ZARA:

MANGO:

(Hui's dad saw the dress and agreed to buy it for her ! )

Ms Selfridge:

(Omg I love the blue dress but it costs like 83bucks >< )

Samuel&Kevin:

&she bought the shirt she's wearing, and she was on high the rest of the day (:

Sleepover! :

Many many many other pictures, but blogger is so slow in uploading them, I can't bother. Anyway, LOVE YOU HUI, thanks for the wonderful time ytd <3

2008-05-22T20:50:00.000+08:00

DAVID COOK WON AMERICAN IDOL! <3

2008-05-21T19:15:00.005+08:00

The above two were taken in succession, and were not intentionally taken that way hahah (: Love Ms Mad!

Jia, bestest tablemate <3

2008-05-21T19:00:00.002+08:00

I wonder if its just me. There always seems to be this quiet irritation I have to get over each time, and although it doesn't seem to be as bad anymore, some things still make it worse.
I need to learn to stop trying to control things out of my control and just let God take over.
Jubilate coming up in a week, me and Myra are going pok with all the farewell presents we're planning to buy, as well as the roses, thank God we're sharing anyway (:
SLEEPOVER WITH HUI DARLING TMR <333

2008-05-14T18:29:00.002+08:00

'It was summertime, and two children scampered down the sidewalk towards a man approaching in the distance. The man waved, and the children raced each other to him.
It was still summertime, and the children came closer. A boy trudged down the sidewalk dragging a fishing-pole behind him. A man stood waiting wit his hands on his hips. Summertime, and his children played in the front yard with their friend, enacting a strange little drama of their own invention.
It was fall, and his children fought on the sidewalk in front of Mrs Dubose's. The boy helped his sister to her feet, and they made their way home. Fall, and his children trotted to and fro around the corner, the day's woes and triumphs on their faces. They stopped at an oak tree, delighted, puzzled, apprehensive.
Winter, and his children shivered at the front gate, silhouetted against a blazing house. Winter, and a man walked into the street, dropped his glasses, and shot a dog.
Summer, and he watched his children's heart break. Autumn again, and Boo's children needed him.
Atticus was right. One time he said you never really know a man until you stand in his shoes and walk around in them.'
-To Kill A Mockingbird

2008-05-11T19:18:00.002+08:00

"From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over all the land. About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"- which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" " -Matthew 27:45

Thank You for Your saving grace.

2008-05-10T21:29:00.001+08:00

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello
I've just got to let you know
Because I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you

2008-05-09T22:32:00.001+08:00

Oh, Johnny wishes he was famous
Spends his time alone
In the basement
With Lennon and Cobain
A guitar and a stereo
While he wishes he
Could escape this
It all seems so contagious
Not to be yourself and faceless
In a song that has no soul
I remember feeling low
I remember losing hope
I remember all the feelings

And I still remember them now.

2008-05-04T22:07:00.002+08:00

ELAINEEE <3
All the best for your AP papers, you will do well ohkay (: Someone's so smart and hardworking! Jiayou in your revision these few days SEE YOU ON WED <333
I still love your spongebob shirt! THANK YOU for bring my history books home!

(AHAH ms mad! I bet you want the shirt hahaha)

2008-04-30T18:54:00.002+08:00

Y'knw Jang & Qihan are super duper cool! :D

They are like, PRES and VICEPRES of HCJC Student Council, me & Andy were so proud of them when we heard and we went high over CONCEPT!

CONCEPT WAN SUI <3

Labour Day Holiday tmr! I have come up with a list of things to finish and study and I will finish them and be super satisfied and happy (:

Testimonials ):

2008-04-29T22:17:00.001+08:00

这个世界有那么多不如意的事，当我应付不了的时候，我可不可以，可不可以不勇敢呢？

2008-04-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

I just found out the greatness of archives haha (:
Went to read all my previous posts from Sec2 just now, and it was really amusing. I miss 2faith06, I miss Xian Hui love, I miss my dear twinsy. ><

David Cook rocks, his voice is so sexy and swoon-worthy :D

I'm happy (: I've been blessed, I am blessed.

/ Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

2008-04-23T09:47:00.001+08:00

I MISS 13SLC OT ):

2008-03-31T11:46:00.002+08:00

29/3-- FIESTA'08

It was madness, the day before, the day itself. Stayed up till 3 on Sat morning at Roxanne's house packing the pretty cupcakes (: Ran 100m for the record breaking attempt earlier on with Myra, she's one crazy person haha! Holding hands and running through the rain was fun (: Though she drove me crazy bullying me afterwards.
4Truth's the lovee! We sold EVERY SINGLE BROWNIE AND CUPCAKE !!! (: Walked around with Benji, Joel, Rachel, Clarice and Elaine in the morning. Benji's so easily scared hahaha :D It was really tiring, walking around as Alice with Stacy and Weng Jun with pumps that gave me blisters :/ and sun beating down on us mercilessly, we were all sweating like mad, it's a wonder Kenny Rogers didnt kick me out of his restaurant later at night during dinner haha. Stayed on our feet all day pushing people to buy the brownies and cupcakes. Saw Subha, Jo, Elaine, Guan Yu, Shannon! Ben & Chern Yuen came as well, but it was such a crowd I didn't get to see them.
Anyhow, >: ( oh GAH I just realised I have one more fiesta ticket in my wallet, that's 10bucks I didnt use pfft.
Went around buying everything people couldnt sell at bout 5 with some others for the class, (like 6 bottles of 1.5L of Sprite and ice cream hahaha) and left for Marina Square for Benji's birthday dinner.

Stnicks ftw ! (:
Holiday today, have so much to do, better stop delaying hmph.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE!
Finally 16, the age we wanted to be since 10 haha (: I love you dear, enjoy your sweet sixteen!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJI!
Haha ok fine, you're not a kid anymore, it's rather disturbing 'cuz you're the same age as me now haha (: Anyway, happy birthday, enjoy your 15th birthday!

2008-03-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

Xian Hui: "DARLING! SURPRISE! I TRAVELLED 2 HOURS FROM THE OTHER END OF THE WORLD TO COME SEE YOU."

Hahaha thank you darling you made my day, I was so happy to see you in school today (:

/cartwheels in the air

2008-03-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

Do you remember happiness?

This term's off to a good start (I'm hoping, praying hard it will last)
I will smile and be a cheery sunshine this term!
Go 4Truth (:

I'm wondering.

世界最大的距离是当我站在你的面前，但你却不知道我爱你。

2008-03-13T17:35:00.002+08:00

Xian Hui's my sunshine [:
Twin's going to Italy tonight, JIAYOU LOVE!
I love SN choir, I miss Czech.

/Give me a thousand years but I won't give yesterday away.
Give me a thousand choirs but I only want to hear you sing.
Give me a thousand smiles but I only want yours.
My hand belongs in yours [:

2008-03-11T12:45:00.001+08:00

I miss 13slc OT.

GO SN CHOIR!

2008-02-19T12:22:00.003+08:00

I love my valentines [:

P.S. I love you with Rach was good [: Walked around Wisma/Taka before the movie with her, and as usual she tried making me try on pink clothes. We need to go shopping proper together one day :D

Slept 3 1/2 hours before valentine's day itself studying for binomial, folding hearts and writing cards. I'm going to miss Valentine's in stnicks next year, I love stnicks yay [: Roses from Jia, Mr A and Xi Xian, at least I know this year one of my roses will NEVER die heehee.
I'm going to get a sore throat from chocolates and cookies& nice brownies from Myra :D

I love Charlyne :D (She tries to act cute, again)

TK concert on 28th Feb, go twin! <3

2008-02-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

I'm wasting time reading blogs because I'm stuck on my maths homework and I'm tired and I want to sleep but at the same time I don't really want to sleep and oh,
HAPPY NEW YEAR.

<3333s

2008-01-30T22:26:00.000+08:00

I'm holding on a rope
Got me 10 feet off the ground

5weeks;
Already I'm worn out
Already I'm not doing well.
Already I'm irritable.

13SLC, I miss you. Can't wait to see OT on Fri [:

3terms and 5 weeks more to go.
I can do it, I know I can.

Why then do I still feel so scared?

2008-01-26T17:12:00.000+08:00

You're my sunshine [:

2008-01-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

It's a bitter sweet kind of feeling,
that you know you've done well,
but the sorrow that surrounds you won't go away.

One year.

2008-01-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

Rachel, & her insaneness.

Me: "I'm finishing the potato!"
Rach: "You're FRENCHING the potato?!"
Me: "NOO! Omg you siao!"
---
Me: "How do you french the potato anyway.."
Rach: "Want me to show you?"

-.-

Rach: "I'm SORRY, instant noodles turns me on!"

Erps. Ohkay.

&she very smartly left her earphones in the gym. Well done.

But thank you dearie, for giving me a wonderful evening, & pei-ing me so I won't feel lonely all alone at home. [:
Even though you did laugh at the green dress (though I couldn't stand it too)

<3

2007-12-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

PICTURES [:
Rach gloating >: (

Desmond&Vibbie [:

XianHui&me [:

Waterbombs!

Val&me [:

Council Day Camp! [:

Cool Chia; Ushering MTP [:

Pei Wen,Mary,Christine, Chia [:

Prada&POSB cards :D

Claud,Jia&Shu [:

Abby&me [:

National Day; Red hair! [:

Sesame street&us [:

Worm ! :D

BRAVO :D

Me,Myra&the weird drink which I forgot the name :D

Last but not least, our cool plasters! :D

2007-12-11T22:24:00.000+08:00

My Sister's Keeper is wonderful *swoons and faints*

Read it or dieee :D

Anyway,

Ms Mad, Masticated, Musical and Melodious hung the wonderful wonderful choir banner..

In the rain.

That's right folks, we're so pro that we hung it in the pouring rain and me and Val got so drenched Myra & Jean laughed and laughed at us.

Thanks alot ah you two, you weren't the ones who made sure the banner was straight and nice ;p

But then we went down to Macs in the rain with Myra & Val's nice umbrellas [:

And we ate and ate,

& went back to school to hang posters [:

Yay we're so cool, JOIN SNCHOIR!

2007-12-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

Bus rides.
Phone calls till 4 in the morning.
Spending time with each other.
Laughing and sharing with each other.
Talking till you fall asleep on the phone.

The million and one things he says.
You ponder if that is love is all about.

Pool lessons.
Comfortable silences.
Confiding in each other.
Spending time with each other.
Laughing at each other, with each other.

The million and one things he says.
I wonder if perhaps, it would last.

Conversations on the phone and msn.
Sleepovers at my house.
Screams of delight and joy.
Eating and 'cooking' together.
Enjoying each other's company.

The million and one things we say.
I thank you for always being there Xian Hui.

You're really special, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I LOVE YOU

2007-12-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

Hello BRAvo you are loved!

2007-11-29T20:08:00.000+08:00

Instructions
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with; I have been tagged

Favourites
Favourite Colour: Blue, Orange [:
Favourite Food: Chips & anything with cheese
Favourite Movie: Undecided
Favourite Sport: Basketball
Favourite Day of The Week: Sunday
Favourite season: Spring
Favourite ice-cream: Ben & Jerry's

Currents
Current Mood: Contented [:
Current Clothes: Concept tee & white FBTs
Current Desktop: A picture with a musical note
Current Time: 8.13pm
Current Surroundings: My room
Current Annoyances: Techno remix of a irritating chinese song pounding in the living room
Current Thoughts: Legendary Leaders Summit, finishing this

Firsts
First Best Friend: Rach love
First Crush: Ha!
First Movie: ??
First Lie: -.-
First Music: Next.

Lasts
Last Drink: Lemon Honey [:
Last Crush: Ehhh.
Last phonecall: Dad
Last CD played: Woah, that was on... Sun.

Have you evers?
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: That would make me a lesbian & a law breaker
Have you ever broken the law: Jay walking count?
Have you ever been arrested: No
Have you ever been on TV: Yeah
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: No

Random
5 things you're good at:
1. Singing?
2. Making alot of noise [:
3. Sleeping !
4. Talking and talking and talking
5. Cheering with BRAVO [:

4 things you've done today:
1. Cheered with BRAVO [:
2. Listened to ghost stories in the wee hours of the morning
3. Watched A Series Of Unfortunate Events
4. Downloaded A Hundred Years [:

3 things you can hear right now:
1. Fan blowing
2. Children playing and screaming
3. Typing sounds of a keyboard

5 people to tag
-

[: Yay, done.
Haha sorry Shinny dear, I'm not really fond of doing this now!

2007-11-29T19:38:00.000+08:00

BRAVO= LOVE

I never expected to take away so much from the camp, from bruises and bites and sore throats to beautiful wonderful memories, new friendships and many valuable lessons.

Every single leader in this camp inspired me so much, seeing others lead and how life stories were told, and how the coaches were so wonderful and team Bravo is simply bravo [:

There's so much I want to say about the camp, about the night/morning trail, how everyone cheered and sang for me while I was frightened to death on the CRC log, how we laughed and laughed over meal times together, how the coaches told us ghost stories on the last night late into the morning, how Jolly me Amanda and Chia Ern stayed up one night to play cards, how I laughed as I tried to teach Coach Sky how to play the hulahoop, how Bravo cheered and laughed and cheered and screamed and played together, how Qin Hui imitated Coach Terrence with his ah beng talk and fringe flinging about, how we hugged each and everyone after the whole camp was over.

Amanda Lau Chia Ern Jolly Shu Fen Christine Justine Shikin Yi Xiang Genin Qin Hui Fitri Jing Qin Tommy Siswo Sabrina Zhi Ying Loy Aisyah Charlotte Eva Merrilyn;

We're the team that always TRIUMPHS
& BRAvo was our name, oh! :D

2007-11-22T23:29:00.000+08:00

SNSC EXCO = LOVE

Council'08 will rock [:

2007-11-13T20:57:00.000+08:00

Jia, I like your new phone [:

This week has been, and is going to be tiring. The only thing I'm looking forward to now is the smooth running of Invest'07, and the choir singing well on Saturday, that would make my whole week worthwhile.

Apple refuses to let me download iTunes properly, and water just went up my windpipe, it's going to be a long week ahead.

Hello Xian Hui my dear girl, I can't wait till our next sleepover, I miss you :/

Hello Rach love, I can't wait till Sunday to talk to you, I miss you too :/

/ You're the one that lights my fire You're the one that keeps me strong You're the one that I depend on When my world is goin' wrong

And I really really love you I just want you to know that

2007-11-03T17:35:00.000+08:00

After not blogging here for the last few weeks I feel so lost blogging here, but because someone complained that I haven't been blogging, I shall [:

Having school even after everyone else is having holidays isn't that bad after all, with crazy people like Myra playing cow cow tycoon on Li Jia's phone, Claud and me making kissing noises in Charlyne's ear, and the cool 3 Truth laughing like mad at Social Etiquette Course and cheering and clapping for ourselves [:
& of course, not to mention cam whoring and then putting our big big faces on Bev's phone.

One paper of the big O down, hooray! Chinese Paper 1 seemed screwed to me, but Paper 2 was alright, hopefully I still get the A1.
& after that we went to Pasta Mania to celebrate Abby's birthday, and, oh! The things me and Zhu Wei do to avoid Abby knowing bout the cake we bought.
Zhu Wei: "Ehhh you go tell her go to the toilet with you!"
Me: "But we're supposed to be in the toilet!"
Zhu Wei: "Then then... Tell her I'm stuck in the toilet and I told her to come!"
Me: *starts laughing*
Zhu Wei: "Then you go into the toilet and shout "Zhu Wei! Where are you!", then you tell her, eh she go back already."

Abby's reaction was damn funny when she came back from the detour with me and everyone burst out in the Happy Birthday song.
Well just Myra and Jia Mei and the rest of them hiding their faces with everyone looking at us.
& like Myra said, we couldn't even finish the song without bursting out in laughter.
Pictures up after I upload them!

Back to the Social Etiquette Course. Mr Christian Chua was hilarious, Myra couldn't stop laughing at the things he said, and that was probably the opposite of the demure and gentle ladies the school wanted us to turn into.
And when they started teaching us how to sit, I was like "ehh -.-" because of a comment I told someone the previous night, that if they taught how to sit, I'd walk out.
I didn't, of course not!
& us volunteering Abby for the appropriate length of skirt was hilarious, she felt like killing us afterwards.

2more weeks to the cool and sleek SN Invest, if you're not going to be there you're square!

/come over to your window & you'll see me standing on the ground below

2007-10-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

13thOCT
Rach woke me up with her insane giggling and before she could use Desmond the Duck to hit me to get me to wake up, I went, "Oh no, not Desmond again."
[: Thanks darling, for cooking breakfast for me, for watching Secret with me & liking it, & for the presents, it was all lovely !

Shopping with the 'rents after that, at Ikea & Plaza Singapura, I felt like such a spoilt brat after that, with all the stuff they bought for me

14thOCT
BBQ after church, & the cake SG bought was huge [: Thanks Viv Elaine Char Monkey Rach Dinah Eleanor for the wonderful time, I love you guys [:

/Elaine, I love you alot alot, thank you :/

15thOCT
Out with JAMY Zhu Wei & Justin, watched The Italian at Cathay! [: Em Tan joined us after with that piece of cake, thank you all darlings for making my yesterday wonderful

16thOCT
Results back, ugh.

2007-10-11T21:18:00.000+08:00

Don't try falling on your butt 5 times, it hurts, alot.
Someone should invent butt pads please, for klutz like me who can't stop properly and step up steps properly without falling.

Skating today was fun, haven't skated for years.
Dear twin, remember in Primary School when we had skating lessons in the canteen? That was fun [:

& so was bowling
Dear Sarah, Jo & Ting, remember Concept Outing and the pro Ben & us girls being like, bleah ? I miss you guys, see you all soon!

& pool was :/ haha if you've ever seen me attempt to play pool
Dear bestie, remember the time at Samuel's place where we played pool and he thrashed us and I just sucked? I love you dear, can't wait to see you on Sat

Thanks dear, for everything today, today was wonderful [:

Two to Fifteen, I just realised my previous countdown was one day lag, haha! :D

2007-10-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

FREE
[: After 10days of grueling papers, boy am I glad EOYs are over !
Now to play hard till the papers come back on Tues & Wed, that's not something I'm looking forward to :/

SN ExCo IS GOING TO PLAN THE BESTEST & THE COOLEST INVEST EVER,
& if you miss it, sucks to you, ha! :D

Out with twinsy love & Moy Kit on fri, with bestie dear on sat, with JAMY & Zhu Wei on mon, I love post exams, alot [:

Four to Fifteen, cheers and hoorays :D

2007-10-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

I'm going to die for Lit tmr, because I have completely forgotten how to do Prose questions, and MSND is driving me nuts with its many themes, and argh, Shakespeare is too much of a genius for his own good.

Well done Yi Ying!

Survival of the fittest during EOYs, we all survived half [:
Go Truth, you're the <3

Some extremely hilarious conversations took place today but I very smartly forgot all of them.
I'm extremely tempted to do up a list of post EOY activities including shopping with bestie and salsa with Xian Hui but I shall refrain from doing so.
Instead I'll read prose and listen to Modern Minds and Pastimes, yay [:

Eleven to Fifteen! /

-WHAT HAPPENED TO HIATUS!

2007-09-05T20:28:00.000+08:00

HIATUS
till the 10.10.2007

/adieu, till we meet again

2007-09-01T15:17:00.000+08:00

Pale- Within Temptation
The world seems not the same,
Though I know nothing has changed.
It's all my state of mind,
I can't leave it all behind.
Have to stand up to be stronger.

Have to try to break free
From the thoughts in my mind.
Use the time that I have,
I can't say goodbye,
Have to make it right.
Have to fight, cause I know
In the end it's worthwhile,
That the pain that I feel slowly fades away.
It will be alright.

I know, should realize
Time is precious, it is worthwhile.
Despite how I feel inside,
Have to trust it'll be all right.
Have to stand up to be stronger.

I have to try to break free
From the thoughts in my mind.
Use the time that I have,
I can't say goodbye,
Have to make it right.
Have to fight, cause I know
In the end it's worthwhile,
That the pain that I feel slowly fades away.
It will be alright.

Oh, this night is too long.
Have no strength to go on.
No more pain, I'm floating away.
Through the mist see the face
Of an angel, who calls my name.
I remember you're the reason I have to stay.

Have to try to break free
From the thoughts in my mind.
Use the time that I have,
I can't say goodbye,
Have to make it right.
Have to fight, cause I know
In the end it's worthwhile,
That the pain that I feel slowly fades away.
It will be alright.

Hello Conceptians, I can't wait to see you all. ♥

2007-08-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

Rachel told you about her life in her blog.

I'm here to tell you the other part

She's always there when you need her.
She's an absolute dear.
She tells you the truth when no one else.
She's smart.
She sees things the way no one else does.
She cares for people, sometimes too much.
She's not superwoman. People screw up sometimes.
She tries her absolute best.
She's special.
She loves with all she's got.
& when people disappoint her, she gets disappointed at herself instead.
She's really creative.
She feels for people the way only she can.
She would protect you with all she's got.
She loves shopping.
She's strong and can overcome anything.
She's my best friend and I love her.
& she's not alone.

Darling, you're the special-ish person I know & love

dont give up on yourself, I haven't given up on you.
you didn't give up on me, I'm not going to give up on you now.

2007-08-16T21:22:00.000+08:00

Social Life at Hogwarts

Most people that know you, like you. You are a little shy, friendly, and very sweet and innocent. You try your best in your studies and often get an okay grade. You are scared of the dark, monsters, and bugs. You love your friends, but sometimes don't trust all of them. You are very quiet around strangers, but when your with your friends you could be the loudest person in the room.

Harry: He is happy for you and Ron and thinks you are a great person. He is kind of torn about who he thinks should be with Ron in the end. It's either you and Hermione, but he thinks you are both good for Ron.

Ron: He loves you. He's glad that you both share the same fears, such as spiders. He thinks you are great to be with and is completely comfortable in your presence. He knows that you and Hermione have a tension between you and always leaves quickly when you three are all together. He is so glad you are his girlfriend, and prays that you'll never leave him.

Hermione: She hates you because you took Ron away. Her logical side knows she's judging you wrong, but her heart refuses to forgive you. She wants to be your best friend again, like she was before you started dating Ron, but everytime she sees you with him she storms off. Jealousy is a tricky thing.

Ginny: She is one of your closest friends. She can't wait til you and her become sisters-in-law. However, she is also torn, like Harry, on who is more of Ron's soul mate. She always says gross when she sees you and Ron snogging, but besides that she's happy that your around the Burrow all the time with Ron.

Neville: He thinks your nice, but that's basically it.

Fred and George: They adore you and pick on you for going out with Ron. They like to tease the two of you when you are snogging and laugh when you both blush. They always tell you about there pranks and love how you laugh and appreciate them. They are ready to weldome you into the family.

Oliver Wood: He doesn't know you that well. Only sees you as the quiet girl who is Ron's girlfriend.

Cedric Diggory: Doesn't know you.

Cho Chang: Thinks you are really cute and the sweetest little thing. She thinks you are very innocent and is always very nice to you.

Lavender Brown: She finds it hard to hate you, since you are so nice and all, but deep down she hates you with every fiber in her body. She is thinking of joining with Hermione to get rid of you, but knows that Hermione wouldn't go that far.

Draco Malfoy: Thinks you and Weasley deserve each other. Both blood traitors. Deep down he wishes he found someone like that, but won't admit it. He thinks you're an okay person, but can't say that for fear of getting punished.

Pansy: Doesn't know or talk to you.

Crabbe and Goyle: Same as Pansy.

Dumbledore: He thinks you are very nice and wishes you the best with Mister Weasley.

McGonagall: She appreciates your effort in class and thinks you are a great student. She just wished that you and Mister Weasley would stop staring at each other during class.

Hagrid: He thinks you are a great girl and laughs when you and Ron always blush. He thinks you two are the cutest couple. He calls it 'puppy love'.

Snape: He doesn't notice you and doesn't care. He takes house points from you every now and then, not because he hates you, it's because you always manage to do something wrong in your potions.

Voldemort: Is thinking of using you to get Ron, but doesn't know if you're worth the trouble. Has you on his list of people to kill, but you aren't exactly his top priority.

Reputation: The Nice Girl
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2007-08-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

Hello.

Are you there?

I don't suppose you are. But anyway,

I just want to say I'm sorry.

Not that you'll be reading this anyway

I was a tad harsh, I know.

That caused the riff between us now.

Then again, I'm not sure the riff wasn't there already in the first place

I'm so scared to talk to you now. Because I don't know what to say.

-Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes

I need a change

2007-08-12T16:55:00.000+08:00

What If- Nichole Nordeman

What if you’re right?
He was just another nice guy.
What if You’re right?

What if it’s true?
They say the cross will only make a fool of you.
What if it’s true?

What if He takes His place in history with all the prophets and the kings
who taught us love and came in peace, but then the story ends?

What then?
But what if you’re wrong?
What if there’s more?
What if there’s hope you’ve never dreamed of hoping for?
What if you jump?
Just close your eyes.
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by suprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

What if you dig way down deeper than your simple-minded friends?
What if you dig?
What if you find a thousand more unanswered questions down inside?
That’s all you find?
What if you pick apart the logic and begin poke the holes?
What if the crown of thorns is no more than folklore that must be told
and re-told, and re-told?

But what if you’re wrong?
What if there’s more?
What if there’s hope you’ve never dreamed of hoping for?
What if you jump?
Just close your eyes.
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by suprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

‘Cuz you’ve been running as fast as you can.
You’ve been looking for a place you land for so long.
But what if you’re wrong?

What if You jump?
Just close your eyes.
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by suprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

2007-08-11T22:54:00.000+08:00

Post National Day

Basketball with OT was the <33 It was worth going down to HCI for, although I wasn't really keen on going in the first place. But despite the sun burns, aches and blisters I got after 4hours of playing in the sun, it was all worth it, especially seeing the h(OT)ties again after so long. Prata rounded up the day very nicely, with Chern Yuen's pigging out, Jo's slowness & Mel's brainlessness :D

13slc; [I♥SLCOT] YIYING says:
miss you guys to BITS
13slc; [I♥SLCOT] make me versatile(: says:
EEEEYYERRR DONT CRUSH US

Saturday

Seeing Xian Hui again was the bomb [: Caught up with her after so long of not seeing each other, & basketball with her was :D So was watching Wasabi together, and talking and talking [:
I LOVE YOU DARLING <33

I'm starting to like National Day for its long holidays [:

2007-08-04T12:05:00.000+08:00

ACSI Choir Concert

After a long grueling week of tests, tests & more tests, we finally took a break, and rushed down to Millenia Walk before going to ACSI,

Shopped at Candy Empire for a bit,

Looked around at Nike,

& went to BK to get our dinner,

& proceed to get lost on our way to City Hall. :]

All the same, we made it to ACSI with 10 mins to spare.
& at intermission,

Myra & I initiated the run up to the 4th floor,

looked at stars,

ran to watch soccer players,

shouted "GOOOOOOAL!" & ran away, leaving the rest of the gang there,

ran up to the rooftop,

& ran back down to the auditorium to give the rest a surprise,

only to spoil the surprise with Myra needing the washroom -.-

[ACSI has nice automatic taps :D ]

IM BROKE :/

2007-07-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

Midnight Sketches of Maths /

Mental Note Of The Day:
Jia Mei's sex life is deprived & she seeks pleasure from watching lesbians & what-nots.

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On another note,
I miss the red badges.
It's not at all fun being the seniors of choir.
I want my seniors baaaaack ):

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13slc; [I♥SLCOT] YIYING ♥ RETARDS INCORPORATED says:
i feel like *hitting them with my tiny fists*
13slc; [I♥SLCOT] YIYING ♥ RETARDS INCORPORATED says:
lol ok that was random
13slc; [I♥SLCOT][CONCEPT]IAN andrea says:
i feel like pinching their hairy cheeks and flapping their flabby arms. bleah.

[: Andrea amuses me

/ yeah, & Bedtime Stories of Biology lulls me to sleep.

2007-07-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

Outside Far East watching the breakdancers:

Jo: "I can do that!"

A few seconds later

Jo: "...maybe not."

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Despite losing to SJI&HCI, St Nicks Lit Team still rocks anyway.
Saw all the ex-Pri PL Lites, I'm still the shortest & will probably be for the longest time.

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My brother looks absolutely dashing in his band blazer & long white pants.
& guys who can play the violin supremely well, not be nerdy & look damn cool are irresistable sexy [:

2007-07-27T16:17:00.000+08:00

ZHU WEI LOVES ME :D

LIT IS COOL & HIP!

YAYYYYYYY WE'LL BLOW THEIR MINDS AWAY & ROCK THEIR SOCKS :DD

SO THERE ---
BE READY TO ADMIT DEFEAT! :DDD

I LOVE YISHU ;0

I LOVE ZHUWEI MORE (((:

I LOVE LIT TEAM THE MOST! :D

2007-07-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

YI YING IS A VERY HAPPY GIRL NOW :D

TGIF IN ONE & A HALF DAYS TIME! :]
orange is a VERY NICE COLOUR! :)

/I'm so secure, You're here with me
God above all :]

[/edit]: oh pfff the green is so nice & yet it cant appear properly >: (

2007-07-23T22:26:00.000+08:00

hello h(ot)ties i miss you all <3

/ Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

2007-07-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

rachel sent 18/07/2007 19:29:
if you were an angel you'd be the prettiest kindest thing with wings
but since you're the sunshine in my garden,
stay that way. you're the nicest and the brightest and i can't live without you.

DARLING, I LOVE YOU <3

2007-07-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

CONGRATS ANDREA & DAYOUZHI ! <33

We flying the first class
Up in the sky
Poppin' champagne
Livin' the life
In the fast lane
And I won't change
For the glamorous

2007-07-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

Put The Big Red Button on your site

(: haha elaine, this really is amusing!

HARRY POTTER on friday with the girls & matthew. felt so free & happy (:
&me blogging this surprises me. i havent blogged for a long time without having an aim in mind. like i'm just typing and typing & i dunno what i'm going to say next too.
it feels... nice.
i feel happy now. (:

/i'd runaway with you

2007-07-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

Camwhoring with the girls at the jungle gym (:

&there's more still.

~~ican'ttoleratehypocrites.~~

~~andyetican'tdenyiamone.~~

~~i'msuchabitch,ihatemyself.~~

2007-07-08T22:09:00.000+08:00

You're always brilliant in the morning,
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.
Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar.
You'd teach me of honest things,
Things that were daring, things that were clean.
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean.
I hid my soiled hands behind my back.
Somewhere along the line,
I must've gone
Off track with you.

patience. a virtue i must learn.

i really hate myself sometimes.
for believing in what's not worth believing
for dreaming dreams that will not come true.

but i know it's all going to be alright.

/ guilty until proven innocent

2007-07-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

D-Day.

it came so soon. too soon.
then again, if you asked me, I would never be ready for this day.

(:
3truth made it all so lovely and wonderful for me.
abby surprising me with chicken essence (:
campaign team taking all the pains to do the stickers&toilet seats
regina spending so much time doing the trailer
nat doing the posters over and over again
myra hurting herself doing the toilet seats
charlyne filling her tie with my stickers
emilytan zhuwei abby jiamei and myra putting up with my constant repetition of the speech
and manymany more.

I LOVE YOU ALL MANYMANY.

thank you all darlings, esp campaign team&3truth:
who supported me
who did so much for me
who laughed and shared the pain with me
who encouraged me
YOU ALL ARE LIKE NO OTHER.

&after choir was lovely.
sitting down on the track with jiamei & val, and later abby.
talking, enjoying the breeze in the evening
and going to ave2gate at 7, only to find out that it was LOCKED.
we attempted climbing over (FLO! why is it i always have to climb over locked gates :D )
but it was too high and i got scared at the top
and we had to walk all the way back to st13.
nevertheless,
JIAMEI&ABBY= <33

OT DINNER TMR.

2007-07-04T19:20:00.000+08:00

round like a circle in a spiral like a wheel within a wheel
never ending or beginning on an ever spinning reel
like a snowball down a mountain or a carnival balloon
like a carousel that's turning running rings aroud the moon
like a clock hands are sweeping past that minutes of its face
and the world is like an apple whirling silently in space
like the circles that you find in the windmills of your mind
keys that jingle in your pocket
words that jangle in your head
why did summer go so quickly
was it something that you said?
lovers walk along a shore and leave their footprints in the sand
is the sound of distant drumming just the fingers of your hand?
pictures hanging in a hallway and the fragment of a song
half remembered names and faces but to whom do they belong
when you knew that it was over in the autumn of goodbyes
for a moment you could not recall the coulour of his eyes
like a circle on a spiral like a wheel within a wheel
never ending or beginning on an ever spinning reel
as the images unwind
like the circles that you find
in the windmils of your mind.

-those red rimmed eyes
recalling the bittersweet memories
the hard fact of the fragile-ness of life
there you go, she's gone.

one more day.
thank you all who've been supporting me (:
loves.